With this separation finally coming to a close, I wanted to take some time to thank all of people who have been with me on this journey. Some are people I have known for years, others I have just met. But you each played a part in my emotional recovery.
Mom: Thank you for all you have done for me. You have listened to me cry, in person and on the phone; you have said “uh-huh” at all the right times; you have been supportive of both of us, especially when he didn’t think anyone supported him.
Dad: Even though it’s sometimes hard for you to hear me cry, you stayed on the phone and listened. You have agreed with me when I needed someone to agree with me. You made sure we were always okay. Most importantly, you let me know you cared.
Nana: Even though we do not always see eye-to-eye, you made sure I knew that I had someone behind me. You listened, and, as much as I didn’t like to hear it sometimes, you gave me the tough love I needed.
Jen: You may be far away, but you have always taken a little bit of time out of your day to check in with me and make sure I am okay. You let me talk (er, text) when I needed, and that has meant the world to me.
Madison: Even though I only got to see you for a day when I was in California, you let me talk…and talk…and talk. And check my phone nervously. You were there when I needed to relax and you helped me to take my mind off things, even if just for a little bit.
Mikaila: You were there with me, in wonderful Disneyland, when he called me to say goodbye for 9 weeks. You were there to see me cry as we stood in line for Pirates of the Caribbean. You let me talk about him a lot on that vacation, and you made sure I knew I had support. Even though I may have ruined a little of the Disney happiness, you helped me to look to the future and be in the moment.
Shelby and Cynthia: Even though you girls live a whole state away, and even though we don’t talk every day, you would like time to check on me. You answered questions and you supported me this whole time. You even asked how things were, and actually listened to the answer, even if the answer wasn’t pretty.
Erica: We have just “met,” but I think we have supported each other in ways that maybe other people could not. We both know what the other is going through, and that helps us relate and support each other. I am so glad we have been talking, and I am looking forward to officially meeting you in just a week.
Uncle Seth and Aunt Melissa: You have helped me to grow in my faith and really look to God for help. You are an inspiration.
I would also like to say a BIG thank you to my church family, Covenant Church Flagstaff. My pastors, especially Pastor Emily, have helped me to really let go of my anger at my husband and the situation and realize my wrongs and try to correct my course. You have all helped me to see that God is in control and that I have to trust in Him with my marriage. You have also taken me in to Women’s Ministry in a time when I was really struggling with who I am, my marriage, and not really having a lot of friends. For that, I cannot thank you enough. You have made me realize, even more, that I have to choose who I spend my time with for the good of my heart. You, especially the ladies, are all very wonderful, and I am so blessed to know you all. I am so thankful my husband and I found the church.
Without you all, I do not know what my heart would be like right now as I head into the home stretch. I do not know what my state of mind would be or what sort of emotions I would be dealing with. Without you, I honestly don’t know what he would have been coming home to. So thank you for all you have done; even if you didn’t think you did anything, you definitely did.
I am so blessed to have you all as family and friends. God really could not have provided me a better support system.