Life has been hectic lately since we are moving next week. Our apartment has been filled with boxes, and we have been busy packing up as much as we possibly can while keeping in mind we will still be living in this apartment for a week. I am excited for a new start in life: another new town and graduate school.
As the big moving day approaches, though, I am becoming increasingly anxious for a few reasons: the expense of our new apartment, graduate school, and the fact that neither of us have a job yet. As each day passes, I am getting more and more concerned for what will come.
Philippians 4:6-7 says, though, that we should pray when we are anxious: “Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.”
This passage really hit me when I read it. I thought, I have to tell Him what I am anxious about, and He will calm my anxieties. It suddenly made sense. I can’t just ask him for what I want; that isn’t how it works. I have to ask Him, but also allow Him to come into my heart and create peace where there is chaos.
I think sometimes we get so wrapped up in the chaos of our worries and fears that we forget that while we only have to ask for His guidance, we also have to allow Him to instill peace in our hearts. If we are not open to Him, nothing will be accomplished.
In Luke 12:22-23, Jesus tells us that life is more than the material goods that the world has taught us to cherish: “Therefore I say to you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; nor about the body, what you will put on. Life is more than food, and the body is more than clothing.” This is basic: there is more to life than what you think.
In verse 25, He asks, “And which of you by worrying can add one cubit to his stature?” Jesus is basically asking us what my mom asks me every time I worry about anything, from an exam to a big move: what good will worrying really do? No matter the circumstance, worrying will not do an ounce of good; it will only make you more anxious and fearful and your heart will be closed off.
Jesus then tells us, “And do not seek what you should eat or what you should drink, nor have an anxious mind. For all these things the nations of the world seek after, and your Father knows that you need these things. But seek the kingdom of God, and all these things will be added to you.” Here, He is telling us that everyone is concerned with these things, but that God knows we need food and drink, so we should not worry because God already knows our needs. Instead, we should seek Him because only then will we have far more than the “essentials.”
I guess what I am trying to say is I have found solace in these passages for my own anxieties. I know I have to pray to Him for my anxieties and my fears, for only then will I know peace in my heart. Worrying more will not get me anywhere; instead, I will only grow more weary and less trusting of God.
Every day I pray that we will be blessed with jobs upon our move, that I will hear back from my interview, that we will be able to make it financially. I have to place my trust in God and know that He has a plan for both my husband and myself. My mom always tells me, “If you want to make God laugh, tell Him your plans.” I think she is right. The plans we make for ourselves are nothing in comparison to what He has planned for us.